*this was written while on the plane home and it’s a long one…*
Im out of movies on the flight. What better time to catch up on some blogging eh?
While I was out at Ranch Moby (catchy aint it? teehee), we went to see my dads grave. This is the first time Ive actually been to the grave. If you remember I didnt go back for the funeral since Id just gotten back to SF from seeing him when he passed. After discovering they still havent put a gravestone up yet, I was more than a little mad. Its been over a year and still no gravestone. As expected, the unity we found after dads death has evaporated. Both of the older siblings have stopped sending my little brother money. I told my little brother to start looking for one and get it installed. Even if means paying for it all by myself. I may not have been overly close to my father but this is just plain disrespectful. I find it ironic the one son who has the least reason to look after his affairs is the one making sure they are carried out. Aint that a pisser?
My brother is also going thru some domestic issues. I offered him my heart felt advice and it seems he actually took it. He texted me this afternoon saying he stood up for himself. Course, he also implied that meant the relationship was over. Im proud of him either way. I only mention it as I am heartened to know, gay or straight, there are some experiences that crosses the divide and can be shared between us. It made me feel that much closer to him.
I also took a survey of the land and my youngest sibling is right. It is falling into disarray. The tractor was repossessed because the other 2 brothers have stopped making their share of the payments. The good news is it was in my dads name so it wont fuck up my little brothers credit. Im too far away to be much physical help. Of course, this only serves to make me feel guilty. Especially, since we were originally supposed to spend my visit replacing a barbed wire fence. A fence in much need of replacing. I compromised. I told him Id come back in October/November when the weather was cooler and wed get it all done in one week. Well have to get some help. Fifty acres is too much for the two of us even if we had a tractor. Luckily enough, he and I both have friends that will pitch in. Well payem of course but theyd do it for free.
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