Category: madness

Cranky Pants

I’m in a cranky mood today. Nothing really happened. Just one of those days I guess. This guy stopped in front of me at the gym and before I knew it, I was cussing him a new one. Course, if he didn’t have his head up his ass while talking on a cellphone he wouldn’t have cut me off but you know how I hate to nick-pick.

The gym was good. It is my off day with the trainer so just cardio today. The shower was even better so I still can’t figure out why I’m so damn moody.

I just arrived to work and my trainee is late so maybe it’s a good sign.

Gone For The Summer

Well, as the holiday and the bearfest comes to a close, I find myself trying hard to get back into my schedule. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate schedules? I do. That said, I’ve been really good at keeping my nose to the grindstone these last two weeks.1 Besides my work schedule, I’m hitting the gym 4 days a week, 3 w/the trainer, plus my weekly ride along on Fridays. With all of that poor Moby only gets one day off a week right now. All things considered, I’m ok with a little rebellion. I had a great time too. Does that make it ok? lol

All I can say is thank the Flying Spaghetti Monster today was a holiday. Work is slow and I was able to pay bills, catch up on some chores I neglected, blah blah blah. I was also late meeting the trainer but only by a few minutes. Partly because I met up with brettcajun‘s friend Rich from Dallas after work last night. We met out at the Eagle. I can see why Brett was all ga-ga over him. Besides being sexy, he was also very sweet in person. I met several of his friends and we all laughed and cut up till I had to call it a night. Anyway, I’m normally early so the trainer was ok with lateness. We combined a double set into a triple set and caught up rather quickly.2 We did have a good conversation about him pushing me harder. I tend to be very ectomorphic so my body adapts quickly. To compensate, we have to increase the intensity pretty often. He agreed. Afterwards, I ran into my friend Zack in the hood and we debated tattoo designs. He is very artistic and has designed this very large detailed sea creature tattoo for his back.

In other news, it was unusually nice out today. So much so, after my workout, I went for a ride down by the beach.3 A tad windy but very nice out.

All in all, it was a good weekend. The bears were friendly, the weather was nice, and I was busy!

1 Proven by the fact I haven’t played Xbox in over a week!
2 At the expense of my poor quads/glutes. OY!
3 Another glaring reason none of my chores were completed. tsk, tsk.

Monday Blues II

Yeah, I know it is still Sunday for the rest of you but it’s my Monday. Blech.

I survived the weekend intact. Nothing overly exciting or planned. Well, I did manage to squeeze some naughty time in. There was that. Yeah, it was fun too. Anyway, it rained all week so Friday I just loafed around the house all day. Actually, it rained both days however, I managed to drag my caboose out into the rain on Saturday. I got a few errands done and went to see a movie. It was pretty good as a scary movie. The plot was fair, the acting was decent, and the scary scenes were excellent. There were also a couple of surprise turns you didn’t see coming. Overall, it was a ‘good see‘ but not an absolute ‘must see‘.

Last night I bumped into a friend who I had sorta pushed away for awhile. I haven’t seen him in almost 2 years. We ran into each other in the rain and stopped to chat. Chat turned into dinner and we took time to catch up a bit. He seems to have found some direction in his life. Not all that I hoped for but something is better than nothing. I have to admit, it was good to see him.

So now I’m back at work. Blech. Tomorrow I hit the gym with the trainer again. I’m curious to see how much I’ve improved since last week. I do see some extra tightness in my muscles so I think that is a good sign. I’m just so impatient. I want it and I want it now!

Super Who?

Time to hear me get ‘bitchy’.

I couldn’t be bothered to care who is playing in the superbowl or that it even occurred. If everyone at work wasn’t in such a dither I would have missed it all together. Every damn TV in the place had to be on “the game”. I absolutely detest football1. There! I said it. I’m a football-hating mother fucker. I know many of my fellow bloggers like, even love, the accursed game. Well, good for you.

It isn’t the game itself I detest but the backward mentality associated with it in this country. I’m sure if I’d grown up straight it wouldn’t have been a problem but I didn’t. And growing up in rural East Texas I got a double dose of torment. In my hometown, football was considered not only a right of passage to manhood but a weekly judgement of your emergent masculinity. Not being into football immediately earned me the various titles “fag, sissy, geek, pussy, or all of the above” on a routine basis. It didn’t matter that I excelled in track.2 Nor did my father do anything to help the situation by being an avid football lover. Well, that and he couldn’t help but remark on a regular basis about certain less popular players being queer and a detriment to the game.

So no, I don’t like football. You can keep your stick-up-your-ass game and all the juvenile behavior that come with it. I’ll stick to hockey.

We now return you to your regularly scheduled program…

1 You’d think with all the hugging and those tight tights I’d be in heaven. You’d be wrong.
2 I could run a mile in just over 5 minutes. Not the best but pretty damn good.

What’s Next?

A resounding thank you, thank you for the belated birthday wishes. Alas, I didn’t take any pics while down in lala land. I’m horrible w/remembering to take the damn camera. You’ll just have to take my word for it, a good time was had by all.

I did get a few admonishments for not announcing my birthday up front. Well, pay attention. How much plainer could I have made it? *g* Joking aside, I normally don’t make a big deal over my birthdays. So what if I’m a year older. I survived the childhood from hell. Nothing since has ever been that difficult. My life continually gets better1 so I’m not complaining. Sure the vain part of me is beginning to notice I’m not young anymore; I have a few wrinkles here and there. My hair is ever getting shorter.2 And the boys aren’t as quick to look my way. But hey, that is the nature of life so why should I resent it?

I’m still in the best shape of my life. Oh, I whine about my muscle loss but that is minor compared to when I was uber skinny. I also have a job that pays the bills and allows me some room for playtime. My career of choice is on track albeit a bit slow. My health is good for my age. What’s to complain about? Oh sure, I could have been hung rich, pretty, or all of the above. Hell, I could have been a lot of things. And if a frog had longer legs he wouldn’t bump his ass either. My point here is I learned, somewhat painfully, to worry about what-is vs. what-might-have-been. I try to make the best with what I got. And frankly, I think I’m doing a pretty damn good job of it.

In simpler terms, I treat this body like a rental! I won’t be going to my grave some pristine corpse. Oh no, I plan on skidding into the grave a 60 mph a tore-up-from-the-floor-up, used and abused husk! I may not get my deposit back but that’s ok too. I’ll be able to say “what a ride!”

1 *Crossed fingers* it stays that way.
2 As I get older, I realize it is not falling out, it is falling thru!

Cough Sniffle…PUSH!

It is downright cold in the city today. It is in the low 40’s. BRRRRRRR. I know for some that ain’t bad but for here that is pretty damn cold.

I’m still feeling a little icky from the cold or flu I’m fighting off so didn’t go to the gym today. I went yesterday and had a pretty decent workout. I’m starting a new routine working complimentary groups and then 1 or 2 finisher exercises. I’ve been looking around for a trainer and haven’t quite found one I like yet. Er..Um..well I like several of them however, I need to focus on their skills NOT their bodies. hehehe.

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I watched a documentry called “Why We Fight” last night and I was more than a little mad when it was over. I’m pretty optimisitc however, after watching this little flick, my view of the future isn’t very rosey. I was particularly struck by Karen’s story. The American people need to wakeup and realize what is going on before it is too late. If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend you watch it. If you are Bush supporter, even remotely, you might just change your mind after seeing it.

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I drove another hybrid vehicle the other day. This one had a “synergy drive”, whatever that means. I really liked it. I find I’m using zipcar more and more often. It’s just so darn convenient. So anyway, the car was uber quiet, it had surprisingly good pick up, and I especially like the ratio of gas to miles display on the panel. It does take a little getting used to though. The dashboard layout is completely different from most cars. The gear shift is a short lever that sticks directly out of the dashboard and to park you just stop and punch a button. The only thing I didn’t like was the hatchback. It interferred with my rear view. A small complaint for an overall superb vehicle.

Random Smandom

I’m being bombarded by a cacophony of random thoughts at the moment. Feel free to skip around.

Random thought #1
I broke down and bought a homeless guy food today. I’d say the homeless problem in SF has slowed down a bit now that you can’t get free cash anymore however, it is still a problem. I’m a big believer in tough love. I absolutely refuse to give them money. I will however, provide food. I was headed into Taco Bell for a very nutritious work dinner and this guy asked if he could get some chicken. His demeanor and attitude just sort of struck me as “needy.” I bought him a ‘snacker’ and he was grateful.

Random thought #2
I’m starting to kick ass on Gears of War. Hardcore mode is more about strategy and planning vs just “shoot and kill”. The bad guys are more organized and work as a team.

Random thought #3
Besides being somewhat disappointed in my current state of muscle loss, I’m back into the gym on a consistent basis again. Today, I was down at the one on Brannan and it was a slush pool of hotties. One guy in particular I couldn’t help but drool. I almost ran into him coming out of the shower. There he was standing there in all his naked glory. Dayum! He was yummy. Totally new meat too. I didn’t have time to flash him w/my gaydar but on hindsight my guess is yes.

Random thought #4
Speaking of the gym, I know quite a few people are “resolved” to get in shape and hit the gym as part of their new years goal. A suggestion if you please. When you go into the steam room or sauna after your work out, please have the decency to wash the nasty stank off your balls. These two old fuddy-duddies come waddlin’ in today and go straight into the steam room, stank and all. They park their big bloated asses right down on the bench. Forgetting for a moment, the rapid sure fire way to spread staff infections, no one wants to sit in your body soil. Just a thought…

Withdrawal

OMG! This has got to be a new record. I’ve been online less than 2, 5, 10, 15 minutes today total. For someone who lives ‘on’ the grid, that is a new record.

Its my Friday and I’m off to catch up on the afore mentioned stuff I don’t have enough time to do lately. Hope everyone is having a good weekend so far.

Oh and whoever sent the IM, I did’t ignore you, I missed it. Forgive me.

Back to Normal

I’m back in SF! The cold weather broke and now its just rainy.

I survived 3 days of very boring IDT (Incident Dispatch Training) material. It didn’t help that the class was way out in Concord1. The instructors were knowledgable however, it became clear very quickly this course was meant more as an intro vs real learning. Considering how much they charged my comm. center for the course it could have been better.

That said, I did get a better understanding of just how much more prepared California is compared to other states. Our FEMA/OES rating is the highest in the nation. I sleep good at night knowing the state I call home is very proactive in protecting and sheltering its citizens in times of peril.

I’ve been so busy w/training this week not much time for anything else. For those who asked, yes, I’m loving the TV and the Xbox. No regrets there. I’ve only had one whole day so far to actually sit down and play.

The roomie and I had an interesting conversation last night. He told me he had a friend who is a financial advisor helping him get his finances in order. I bluntly asked how much debt he had and it was only a couple
thousdand dollars. This makes me wonder how much money he “isn’t” making. It is none of my business however, it doesn’t boost my confidence in his ability to pay bills. He knows my strong feelings on stability so I’m not overly worried2. We’ve had a few ‘minor’ mishaps so far. I believe it has more to do w/this management skills than lack of funds. He doesn’t plan very well and his frequent trips down to New Orleans to see the boyfriend and trips to LA to see friends aren’t helping. Anything that makes him more accountable can’t hurt.

1 Concord is total suburban sprawl meets country. No offense to you suburbanites but Blech!
2 Remembering my own struggles just two short years ago, I am not unsympathetic here.