Pain Vs. Pleasure

*I had this long winded rant all written out and forgot to save the damn thing.*

Ok, it has been a while since I posted any thing thought-provoking here. I’ve banished most of my inner demons1 so lately its mostly random stuff. Oh yeah, the private stuff too. The blog traffic always spikes when I post new stuff there. But, I digress.

I’ve been catching up on my blogroll the last couple days. I stumbled across a recent exploit of the little minx. Now, I admit it. I started reading him because I think he is a total hottie. I stayed because of his insight. Insight which is often very different from mine. His latest rant involves a rather explicit encounter he had recently. Hence the title. My rant isn’t a direct correlation but a spin off on a train of thought. And don’t get me wrong, a little pain can be good and even pleasurable however, I’m referring to intense pain as described in his rant.
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Bee-hind

I am sooo behind on my blogrolling. After my test tomorrow today, I plan on catching up. OH yes! I will be visiting each and every one of you. So don’t be surprised if I send you multiple comments while trying to catch up.

My snizzle is gonna be all up in your shizzle.

Real Man

It always takes a real man to leave a shitty comment on someone’s blog w/no email or website reference. Yeah, real man.

So, I get this cheesy email from a guy insulting me in one breath and complimenting me in another. Of course, the compliment was meant to be sarcastic. The sp@m filter caught it and promptly shuffled it into the correct folder. (The joys of WordPress)

I have no problem w/folks who disagree with me however, don’t be a pussy. Have the fuckin’ balls to put your name and email address. Otherwise, don’t expect your comments to see the light of day.

Conversations

While out on the bear crawl1 this weekend, a conversation heard about blogging.

This is sorta where I tuned into to the conversation.

Guy 1: ….yeah, he said he was a blogger. I’ve never read him though

Guy 2: Blogger? I thought only losers did that?

Guy 1: Why do you say that? I’m not even sure what a blog is. I just know he does it.

Guy 2: Its a bunch of queers who don’t have a life complaining about it online. Don’t waste your time.

It was at this point, I felt compelled to intervene. I leaned over and stuck my nose right in their conversation. hehehe

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Color Me Surprised

Wow! I expected a small flurry of emails after my last post however, the number of folks who signed up really blew me away. I got 62 registrations. Sixty two! Who knew? lol And new ones are still rolling in. I’m more than a little flattered. Really. I’m honored so many folks actually read my madness. Ok, enough gushing, moving on now. Most of you I’ve already upgraded. You should now be able to see a private post I added last night.

There were a few folks I didn’t recognize. I emailed you directly and hope to hear back from you. I don’t need anything overly revealing. Just take a moment to introduce yourself and give me some sort of connection.

Abruptly switching gears here, I discovered recently a friend is splitting w/his beau. While I’m genuinely sorry it didn’t work out, I’m also a little bit gleeful.1 I dated said friend briefly. I let it fizzle out due to my own fears and insecurities. Frankly, I was afraid of getting close to someone after my ex. Of course, I realized (too late) that my interest in said friend was more than just a passing one. I regretted not pursuing it further but, not being a homewrecker, I gave him space and room to grow happy in the new relationship.2 Now that he is soon to be single again, I’m wondering how to proceed. Should I fess up to him or just try to strengthen our friendship and see where it leads? Tsk, tsk! Decisions decisions. It doesn’t help I also recently met someone from out of town that I enjoyed spending time with as well. And said someone, is coming to visit me again very soon.

I seem cursed to always end up having to choose between two guys. I am never am able to meet just one guy and take the time to see where it goes. I’m reminded of the phrase “when it rains, it pours” here. The real irony is I have no problem separating love and sex. Monogamy is something I’m not really into. However, I’m not very good at dating more than one person at a time. I wonder what Freud would have to say about that?

Oh well, only time will tell I guess. In the meantime, I’ll continue being my normal incorrigible self.

1 Does that make me a bad person?
2 I sorta expected it to fail though. The boyfriend was kind of a flake. I know I sound biased here but I thought so before they met.

Blogs A Changin’

My blog has evolved quite a bit since I started. You few long time readers will know the ole blog started as a form of self-therapy. Well, I’m happy to report I’ve been able to put more than a few demons to rest in the last few years.1 And while the blog will always be primarily about my life and all the nonsense that entails, I think it’s time to broaden my scope a bit. I’m coming up on my third full year and my 1000th post. I think I’m ready.

Up until now, the blog has focused primarily on my trials and my goals. And while both are true aspects of my id, I feel, more and more lately, like the blog is only a partial representation of who I am. There are good and bad parts (depending on perspective of course) that I often choose not to share for a variety of reasons. Oh, I still write about them, I just lock them away from everyone but me.2 Well, not anymore. I’ve decided to include other things including some of my more ‘adult‘ behavior. Now before you start salivating too much, I’m not refering to “nudie” pics of myself3 but more of an insight into that part of my life. I’ve mentioned on several occasions what a carnal creature I am so now it’s time to put up or shut up. I will add here, be careful what you wish for. You may loose your lofty view of me after reading too much. Consider yourself fore warned.

Of course, I’m left w/the worry that people I don’t want seeing such antics will. Well, that is the great thing about WordPress. I can limit who sees what based on user levels. So, I mentioned a while back about the need to sign up as a registered user. Well, that little tidbit is becoming live. You’ll notice on the left a “log-in” link.4 You can click to log-in and/or register. Usually, once you log in the first time, a cookie is set on your computer so you don’t have to do it every time. Your level of access is set by me obviously. Keep in mind subscribing to my RSS feed or updates by email is not the same thing.

You’ll know when you’re viewing “sensative” material as the title will show a little lock icon and a number at the end of it. The number will indicate your level of access. A few of you already know and have access so if we’ve had this conversation, there is no need for you to redo it.

There you have it. I’m opening things up a bit. Remember, I warned you. If you don’t want to read such antics, don’t log-in or simply log out anytime you feel the need.

1 Don’t get me wrong, there is always room for improvement.
2 Well, and a select few.
3 Those are easy enough to find elsewhere with a little persistence.
4 There is also a link in the footer at the very bottom of the page.

Blogapalooza 2007

So here is the scoop in a nutshell. Blogapalooza 2007 is set for the last weekend of June.1

Several bloggers from all over will be descending upon the city for the festivities. I encourage you to look into booking now as the city does get pretty full.2 The Moby pad is also full up however, I am consolidating a list of folks looking for room and board and/or wanting to share expenses, etc. Also, if you are a local blogger and willing to open up your spare room or home to accommodate an incoming blogger, please let me know.

I am taking the weekend off and am hoping to schedule some group activities for everyone. Nothing fancy, overly expensive, or remotely pretentious will be planned. If you are hoping for the “social event of the weekend“, you are in the wrong place. However, it will be a social get together for us to meet, in the flesh, and get to know each other. You are not expected to be with the group the whole time however, it would be nice if you attend the big dinner with everyone. Cameras and video recorders will abound so please leave your shyness at the door. *wink*

That’s one reminder out of the way…

1 Which is also Gay Pride here.
2 Rumor has it, Large Tony is even considering a trip up.

Bear Hug

Well, I guess my fears about wild bears were unfounded. Not only were the bears very kind but there were quite a few muscle bears on the prowl this weekend. We had some unusually warm weather for this time of year so I’m sure it helped to keep them docile. *G* I got several grunts and woofs over the weekend. I’m still wondering why a little facial hair suddenly qualifies me as an “otter” (I think that is the term)? Speaking of bears, brettcajun‘s friend Rich from Dallas is in town. I’m supposed to meet him and his crew out tonight for a quick drink. I can’t be out late as I have a date w/my trainer tomorrow bright and early.

Oh! I almost forgot. My friend Bobby was showing off a fancy new camera the other day so I just had to have one. It takes really cool vids for a camera. I’ll post a few of those later. In the meantime, here is a mugshot of yours truly I snapped off today. Can you tell it’s my Monday?

Mini Moby

*super duper uber geek alert*

I’m tinkering yet again. I’ve been very unhappy with the way my blog renders on Pocket PC’s and cellphones w/web access. Well leave it to WordPress to have a nifty fix for that. If you have a pocket pc or web enabled phone, check it out! Simple but easy to read and navigate design. Way better than trying to load a full version.

I fraking love it!