Author: Moby

Man Smells or Stank?

I guess I’m on a bitch fest this week.

Something I’ve noticed while living here. It is one of the few things that annoys me about SF. There is this trend it seems of guys being into ‘pits, man smells, etc.’ While I love a a fresh pit, I’ve discovered most of these folks are referring to not bathing. I’m not a big cologne person. It is just not conducive to the climate here to wear lots of cologne. That said, I bath often, use a low smell deodorant, and the rest is el natural. I’ll be the first to admit I love the smell of a guy after a fresh workout and he is all sweaty. I think many (I’m guessing) will agree it is a turnon. However, that same smell tainted by bacteria and stale sweat four days later is NOT.

I bring it up because I’m standing in Daddybucks yesterday waiting my turn for the restroom. This tiny old leathery wrinkled looking thing comes saddling up next to me in line. Forgetting for a moment, he is eyeing me up/down as if I’m to be his next meal, I’m all for niceties. We exchanged “hello, great day out, blah blah blah” and then the stench of him hit me. OMG! I literally thought I was gonna puke. This guy was as ripe as they come. I scooted away to get myself out of his range. Needless to say it didn’t work. Thank the fates I was next in line and quickly escaped.

Yesterday wasn’t my first encounter w/said phenomena however, it got me to wondering how the hell do people get stuck on quirks like this?

I Washed My Heart

I forgot I left my heart on my sleeve and I inadvertently washed it. Just kidding of course. I only say this as I had an interesting conversation w/B from the gym over lunch. We were talking about ex’es but quickly moved on to issues relating to the way gay men interact w/each other. I shared with my philosophy about my own feelings and how I present myself to the world. Mind you, the whole time we are having this conversation thoughts from the little head kept interrupting thoughts from the big head. Of course, the issue of double dating is moot as I discovered B is going on sabbatical for 4 months. Of which, he plans to spend a good chunk cycling across Tuscany. Fucker! I’m so jealous. lolol

Anyway, back on topic. *focus…focus* I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. I used to do it w/o knowing better and now I do it on purpose. Simply put, I do it to avoid confusion later. I’d rather you know exactly where you stand w/me at any given moment. I don’t hide my thoughts or ideas out of fear of rejection. If you reject me, I move on. It’s that simple. I also tend to be very trusting until given a reason not to be. So from my perspective, wearing my heart on my sleeve, so to speak, serves to protect me. B pointed out something I’d never really thought of before. That I probably intimidate some people by being so completely open. I find that thought a bit fascinating. Not because I’d want to be intimidating but that I actually could. Lunch w/B has been the one bright spot in my day.

I’m in a horrible mood. Mostly because of work. I’m just frustrated as hell because I know that I am justified in my anger but powerless to fix the overall problem. Being an Aquarian, I tend to want to fix things, especially when it affects me directly. I really enjoy my job but the pettiness has taken it’s toll on me. So today I’m trying to consider all my options and come to an arrangement w/myself.

I ran into Tim on the subway and he pointed out something I tend to do here on my blog. I have a habit of downplaying my intelligence. Not being able to stand people who are conceited or arrogant, I tend to over compensate in relation to myself. This should clarify some of the comments above too. So for the record, ‘I be done got smarts’. I have a 128 IQ which I’m told is above average. Not that I care. I am just happy that I always seem to be a quick study w/anything I take an interest too. (Happy now Tim? *g*) Moving on.

Not much else to say at the moment. I haven’t done my blogrolling yet today so I may have some new rant in a bit…

Snackables

I have a lunch date w/the guy I met at the gym a while back. He seems nice and has been understanding about the whole dating thing. I just tried to be brutally honest and it seems to be paying off. Besides, even if we don’t click, I am of the firm belief no one can have too many friends.

Wish me luck!

Pictures Worth A Thousand Words

I’m just home from the BCC contest. We had a whopping 6 contestants tonight. That is the most yet. Four of which made it to the finals. I got there late tonight as my schedule has gone back to normal since getting my fire training out of the way.

TH went w/me, which was very nice. I find I enjoy spending time w/him as we always seem to laugh a lot. I miss that. I took the camera w/me and snapped this pic of him and Thom who is a finalist for the contest.

Thom & The Hottie

Hopefully, I won’t fuck it up and scare him off. *crossed fingers* We did have a good laugh before hand. I wasn’t going to post this originally but you guys already know I’m screwy in the head so here goes. The other night I was feeling a bit lonely. TH had left an under shirt from his sleepover (yes, he slept over one night) and I put it over my pillow so I could sleep w/it. How pathetic is that I ask you? He seemed flattered so I guess all is not lost. I can say I didn’t wake up once that night. *g*

Anyway, back to the present. We had a nice time. All the photographers were snapping pics of us tonight so I’ll have several more pics to post later. I also ran into another friend Mark and his new crush. I snapped off a shot of them as well.

Ivan & Mark

They make a cute couple. Mark (on the right) is a great guy and he deserves someone special in his life. His last LTR ended a bit rough so I was tickled to see he has a new flame as well.

And with that, I’m off to bed.

Job Hunting?

Today is the last straw! I’m updatinig my resume and starting to look for new work. I love my job but the BS is so deep I’m getting out before I lose it.

I’m so upset at the moment, I could spit nails. W/o rehashing it at this moment, it was significant enough to make me tell a manager to go to hell right in front of everyone.

So if you know anyone who needs a exec. level assistant or project manager, drop me a line!

Work Hell

I love my job but the constant petty harassment from our management staff is taking its toll on me. I joined the Union to help reform the problem but I just don’t know if I can last that long. The constant daily petty harassment is slowly nawing away my stamina.

We are entrusted with answering emergency life and death calls on a daily basis yet somehow we can’t be trusted for anything else. Management for our building loves to try and control our social behaviors with every rule imagineable. They actively seek out people for the tiniest infraction regardless of whether said person is actually plugged in doing their job. And don’t get me wrong, we need rules to keep order and professionalism. However, when someone is doing their job, LEAVE THEM ALONE!

For anyone not in the know, I work for the Police/Fire dept under th City & County. That means I’m a civil servant. That also means I can’t be terminated by the whim of a managed. I can criticize all I want. Not to mention, if they fired me, I’d park my trailer house (or someone’s) right in front and have every news station in the 9 bay area counties broadcasting my drama on the 6:00 news.

But I’m not bitter.

Scouts Honor!

Following up on breaking ignunce in the news this week, The Head Scout is pleading guilty. Karma has a funny way of kicking ass and I just love it. The fuck is getting exactly what he deserves! (story)

(snip)
Top Scout Pleads Guilty In Kid Porn Case…

…(Fort Worth, Texas) A former official of the Boy Scouts of America is facing up to 20 years in prison after pleading guilty Wednesday to charges of possession and distribution of child pornography.

…Last fall Smith wrote a letter to a legal magazine criticizing opponents of the gay ban. “Some intolerant elements in our society want to force scouting to abandon its values and to become fundamentally different,” he wrote.

…Smith who lives in Colleyville, near Fort Worth, remains free until sentencing July 12. In addition to prison time he could be fined up to $250,000.

And get this, he chose to retire. DUH! I wonder what kind of retirement plan Hunstville State Prison offers? hmmmm?

Hello world!

I’ve discovered that “Hello World” is the first term that programmers learn to recreate when learning to code. It has been driving me nuts seeing the same statement over and over again throughout the code as I’m try to learn PHP.

Here is the first official shot w/the new camera.

What a Mug?

As you can tell I got the new camera. It arrived yesterday right after I left for work. Of course, I had to take a pic of the annoying construction that woke me up at 8:30am bright and early.

Bastards!

You have to understand I live in a noisey area so I expect some noise. You also begin to understand why I look so hungover in the first pic. *g* I often sleep w/one ear plug in to keep the noise to a sleepable (my new word for the day) level. If you look closely, you’ll see this guy pushing a little bitty motorized thing inside the section of the street that is all torn up. That tiny insignificant little bastard was louder than a harley at full throttle!

On a good note, it is a beautiful day here in the city! The sun is out and it is a balmy 64 degrees out. So trying to make the best of it, I trudged off to the gym. I managed to strain a muscle in my back. (or is it the side?) You know the muscles that line the side of your abdomen on both sides, that one but closer to the shoulder. OY! it hurt. Don’t EVEN ask me how I managed to do that when I was working my chest today. I still managed a decent workout so all was not lost.

Changing topics, you’ll notice the shoutbox has moved up the sidebar. I was given strict orders by Tim to move it closer up as he just hates scrolling down for it and also fears his comments aren’t being viewed properly. God forbid the huzzy should get her own blog. Noooo, he is too busy running mine. (and you know it is only w/love that I say these things Tim)

Scandal!

OH I just love a good scandal. Especially, when it involves a hypocrite. Thanks to Towleroad for posting this lovely article about the Boy Scouts head scout. (pun intended)

DALLAS, Texas – The national director of programs for the Boy Scouts of America has been charged with receiving and distributing child pornography, the U.S. Attorney’s office here told NBC News on Tuesday.

Douglas S. Smith Jr. was charged with one felony count of having photos that show “minors engaging in sexually explicit conduct.”

This just gives me a warm fuzzy feeling deep inside. *G*