…but in a good way.
A big thank you to all the kind words and encouragement I got from everyone. Some of the private emails and stories you shared made me tear up a little. Say what you will about blogging but I have found a true network of real, everyday guys who constantly suprise me w/their understanding, insight, and compassion.
I got an email from M today. It was just a quick hello and an apology for not getting back to me before he left. Knowing him somewhat, I’m also reading between the lines here. M is very much like me in that he doesn’t waste time or energy on unnecessary pleasantries. The email tells me one thing, I am on his mind.1 He also made a round-a-bout attempt to let me know he heard what I said and took it seriously. So basically, he has picked the ball up. What he does with it from here is still up in the air but I am a little bit gleeful today.
In other randomness, the trainer is still kicking my ass. I’ve lost about 10lbs of fat overall so far and can see a much nicer leanness in my frame. Since we just started the heavier weights this past week, I can’t report any significant muscle gains however, my muscles feel nice and tight now. Speaking of the gym, I had an encounter today that left me a little confused. I’ll tell ya more later.
On the training front, I’ve been bumped from my ride-alongs for a few weeks. My crew has paramedic intern riding w/them so I have to wait it out. No worries, I have all my required hours in already. I’m just keeping my skills up now. I must admit it is nice to actually have two whole days off though. I also found out the City is definitely on track for hiring EMT’s come June. I’m anxiously awaiting my notification by mail so I can get my name on the list.
What else? Work is work, same shit different day basically. I’ve pulled way back on a lot of the Union stuff in order to keep my sanity about me.
Ble-al, ble-al, ble-all, that’s all folks!
Wow Moby….I’m wrapped up in school with no time to read blogs and happen to come here for a visit. Can’t get over all the news that’s cropped up. Can’t say you have necessarily been whining my friend. You may be perceiving it as such but not here. I think you recognize that you have feelings for someone that has never ever really left your heart and you recognize that you have a chance at another chance, though the road is going to be more challenging based on what you ultimately uncovered.
I hoping for you bud! I know what its like to have missed opportunities on potential “interests.” I had one two years ago but my ‘greenness’ from having just gotten comfortable with my gay self, stalled me from contacting this guy. And what do I discover after staying in touch with him all this time. He’s been dating the same guy all this time from the same summer (’05) that I should have been contacting him in an attempt to get in some dates. Won’t go into it here.
Let’s just say I also fouund out he had only been out for a couple of years at that time as well. And that now there is a stgrong likelihood I’ll be meeting him in SF next month (April) around Easter weekend or so. He’s actually pushed to meet me. Hey, if I am up, we should look to get together with Rob, maybe with*F* for a lunch or a dinner?! …if you’re in town.
Well get your racket ready. Whatever he decides your going to need it. If he returns the ball get ready for a great game. If he drops the ball wack him over the head with it. I’m rooting for you too. What is your goal with the trainer leaner or bigger?
the union stuff – it’s someone else’s turn … they are supposed to be cooperate efforts to ensure your employment rights: if nobody else is interest, what’s the purpose of having it? their rights are still protected under the law. they would still have to meet with a negotiating team, but other than that, i rarely see purpose benefitting the organization.
Cool beans on the 10lbs and the potential job advancement.
I know what you mean about the blog community though. I don’t have a big blogroll that I read – but you always are one of the few I read consistently.