Color Me Surprised

Wow! I expected a small flurry of emails after my last post however, the number of folks who signed up really blew me away. I got 62 registrations. Sixty two! Who knew? lol And new ones are still rolling in. I’m more than a little flattered. Really. I’m honored so many folks actually read my madness. Ok, enough gushing, moving on now. Most of you I’ve already upgraded. You should now be able to see a private post I added last night.

There were a few folks I didn’t recognize. I emailed you directly and hope to hear back from you. I don’t need anything overly revealing. Just take a moment to introduce yourself and give me some sort of connection.

Abruptly switching gears here, I discovered recently a friend is splitting w/his beau. While I’m genuinely sorry it didn’t work out, I’m also a little bit gleeful.1 I dated said friend briefly. I let it fizzle out due to my own fears and insecurities. Frankly, I was afraid of getting close to someone after my ex. Of course, I realized (too late) that my interest in said friend was more than just a passing one. I regretted not pursuing it further but, not being a homewrecker, I gave him space and room to grow happy in the new relationship.2 Now that he is soon to be single again, I’m wondering how to proceed. Should I fess up to him or just try to strengthen our friendship and see where it leads? Tsk, tsk! Decisions decisions. It doesn’t help I also recently met someone from out of town that I enjoyed spending time with as well. And said someone, is coming to visit me again very soon.

I seem cursed to always end up having to choose between two guys. I am never am able to meet just one guy and take the time to see where it goes. I’m reminded of the phrase “when it rains, it pours” here. The real irony is I have no problem separating love and sex. Monogamy is something I’m not really into. However, I’m not very good at dating more than one person at a time. I wonder what Freud would have to say about that?

Oh well, only time will tell I guess. In the meantime, I’ll continue being my normal incorrigible self.

1 Does that make me a bad person?
2 I sorta expected it to fail though. The boyfriend was kind of a flake. I know I sound biased here but I thought so before they met.

11 thoughts on “Color Me Surprised”

  1. Well, been a longtime reader, just didn’t realise that soon I’d have to login to read or comment. Hmm…understandable though, I’ve thought about it too. So many people have issues with MS and Passport (LiveID) anymore so I just haven’t bothered with it yet. But I’m syndicating via LJ now too.

    Your popularity is showing 😉

  2. Re: this “friend”….pursue it Moby. Find some way of getting in touch or crossing paths and then, strike up that conversation. I’ve held back on a one or two guys and sometimes I wish I hadn’t.

  3. I wasn’t able to comment on the hidden post. I think it’s great learning more about Moby. Without saying too much, I feel like I’m learning more about my self too.
    Thanks.

  6. I agree that you should pursue friend, but give it a little time before you really go for it. Being there in his life is great, but being the “rebound” is doomed to failure. It’s fair to him too that he have time to really get over the loss of the last relationship. No matter how much we know in our head that it’s over and that’s a good thing, our hearts are a little slower. Many of us have moved in for the kill too soon before, only to get bit in the end. (Hmm. That doesn’t sound half bad.)

  7. I’m registering, Moby…..
    As for the friends, those are really tough things. Never pleasant being in the middle (unless it’s a sort of naughty sandwich or something).

  8. Moby I couldn’t log in. I have a WP login do I need another one? As for your friend I would go the friend route for now. You don’t want to be the rebound guy.

  9. I think Freud would have a hay-day with all of us…..perverts, sex addicts, warm and wonderful guys, gym bunnies, cheaters, liars, monogamous, players, disfunctional, closet cases, whatever…..he’d love to get ahold of us. I’m loving your new hidden stories. And I’m so there with you. More later….good times.

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